As I usually do on the 19th of the month, Monday morning I watched the clock tick to 11:56am and welcomed Connor into the world 9 months ago. Two minutes later I kissed Colby and said Happy Birthday. Johnny doesn't get it. It's been 9 months, not a year, so not a birthday. He doesn't get why the months and anniversaries are so important... and I can't really explain why, either.
And again this morning I watched 7:08am roll around and said goodbye to Connor while cuddling Colby close. It was a sucky day as always. In some way it made me feel closer to Connor.
I miss him so much. It hurts so much. I need him here with me.
Thinking of you, Colby, and Connor on their nine month birthday. It is hard not to watch the clock tick to this times. xxx
ReplyDeleteThinking of you and your boys. x
ReplyDeleteMissing Connor with you... and so happy Colby is doing so well... I know it is because Connor is with him always.
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