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Wednesday, April 21, 2010

9 Months

9 months ago we said goodbye.

As I usually do on the 19th of the month, Monday morning I watched the clock tick to 11:56am and welcomed Connor into the world 9 months ago. Two minutes later I kissed Colby and said Happy Birthday. Johnny doesn't get it. It's been 9 months, not a year, so not a birthday. He doesn't get why the months and anniversaries are so important... and I can't really explain why, either.

And again this morning I watched 7:08am roll around and said goodbye to Connor while cuddling Colby close. It was a sucky day as always. In some way it made me feel closer to Connor.

I miss him so much. It hurts so much. I need him here with me.

Monday, April 5, 2010

I'm alive!

I've only partially fallen off of the face of the earth. I'm back to work, and things are super, super busy. I'm so far behind on reading and writing!! I'll get there... maybe over April vacation? But maybe not... I went back to work to find my kids almost 4 months behind!!!